Year-Ender Blog and Countdown

since i've been hearing the word year-ender over the media and other stuffs, might as well do a blog summing up the whole year. the countdown reflected the important points of making my year memorable, marami pa ngang dapat sasama dun pero nilimit ko lang sa 20 :D

disclaimer: medyo bangag ako kaya please be cooperative with wrong terms grammar or whatsoever.. sa mga wala yung pangalan don't worry nasa puso ko naman pangalan niyo. naks! :P

i may summarize the previous 3 years with:


2005: is a year of INSPIRATION, striving towards a goal because of learning how to inspire myself, knowing those who are behind my back and learning how to deal with people around me well. Experienced the one of the early meaning of love and being inspired.


2006: year of DREAMS and REGRETS... a year that i almost hit my goal that time, already aimed my target, but neglected those chances... known the purpose of dreams in my life and wished i could turn back the time to do what i'm supposed to do. knowing the value of TIME. Fell into wrong decisions that made me realize about stuffs.


2007: a year full of CHANGES... from stagnation to an active lifestyle, changes of lifestyle, from a simple red warrior to an active tiger. having changes with my perspectives in life, priorities and dealing with people around. Dealing with friendship strengthened during this period, knowing more friends and learning to treasure them. Redefining flexibility in a good manner, maintaining balance in life.


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2008 can be considered as the year of ASPIRATIONS and STRESS.


Top 20 Words, People, Things and Categories of the Year:
There are no actual criteria or tabulation used, its just me who ranked these up according to their effect in making my 2008 complete. ^_^



20. Sites (Multiply, Plurk, PEx, DeviantArt, etc.)

My Virtual Community... Somehow i managed to find great contacts in Multiply, Plurk, PEx, and DeviantArt. I knew some of them and had nice arguments and conversations, managed to learn from them as well, got tons of ideas in DeviantArt, knew great contacts in PEx and Multiply, and I am having fun Plurking.




19. AMV Faculty

Its a year that i was sort of attached to some of the faculty, not that close pero had the opportunity to work and bonded with them outside the classroom. Thanks for the support, help and being part of my year, Ma'am Ailil Alvarez, Sir Pierre Guimary, Sir JC Domingo, Sir Apollo Layug, Ma'am Emelita Samala, Ma'am Ness Pineda at Ate Shirley de Chavez. haha.^_^ (picture: with arch and ma'am ailil - walkout fashion show)




18. Summer Class @ Commerce

My 2 Months stay in Commerce is i can say short but fine, I knew some classmates. Sabi nila Julian, chumochorva daw ako nun.. haha. they've been teasing me with my girl seatmate from commerce. (lol peace..) Our professor is great! susme hats off to that professor though 2.75 lang ako pero ang talino super nung prof namin.. Just to clear things up, first take ko ng Calculus ah. haha. (defensive)

Na-Snatchan pa ako nung Summer (lol).




17. Music and Songs

Music and Songs have been part of making my whole year. Starting from "Tonight" by FM Static and "Fall for you" by Secondhand Serenade up to the midyear's "Forever" by Chris Brown to my recent favorites, Howie Day's "Collide" and Darius Danesh' "Live Twice". Considering the "LSS" or Last Song Syndrome coming from Project One's "Ang Sarap Dito", Rihanna's "Disturbia" and Metro Station's "Shake It".

Songs and Music. Sometimes I tend to relate a year with the songs memorable to that year.



16. Conversion

I'm too young for these stuffs! haha.. Okay having been introduced with this kind of setting freaked me out. though i know how to stand or deal with this. There would always be that bitterness? or i should say regret but not with the converstion of religion but with the person who wanted me to convert. (enough :P). PS: Well, are we to move on? *sigh*




15. Beyond the Limit (UST AMVCoA 4th College Week)

The AMV College Week is a blast! Though this is the week after my deep breakdown, sigh. I managed to be the technical director for the whole week on our major projects. It is also where i had the chance to learn new techniques and gather new ideas, thanks to external resources and to my Twin Brother Arch.

Pressure and Stress are all over the week, considering that I need to help in most of the activities which are even held in line with another one in a day. Thanks to the Accountancy Student Council. haha. Beyond the Limit! yeah. thinking that its a spoof of last year's "I am the Limit" theme, but no, it would just mean that if last year is the limit then might as well we can go beyond last year. A whole week of sheer pressure and stress.



14. Debarment

One of the strict policies of our university, which is much presented in our college. Casualties of failures are extremely outrageous and yet these are all aimed for the better of the students and the college. Last March and April was one of the worst, thinking that more than 10 of the class was hit with this policy, and majority of those 10 were my close friends.

Now I am starting to work on my research paper to be submitted in a defense this february about the effects of these kind of policies in the students' performance in the college.




13. dSLR Camera (darn it!)

One of the Greatest Frustrations of the Year (lol).. Although I experienced for a week to use it (so short) but i'll try to have one by next year. haha! I want to, I need to, and I will have one!. haha.




12. Highschool Peeps

This is a year wherein only debut and birthday parties are the way to get our class back together. I even failed to be in two of the many events of the year, sigh. (sorry cecil and kezia T_T). If I am not mistaken none of our class attended the SJA Homecoming last October. haha. I miss our class, sigh. Its also the first year since graduation that we haven't conducted our mini-reunion during summer. We have this year Izza's, Mary Rose's, AJ's, Cecil's, Kezia's (meron pa ba? hmm) and a bunch of moments where we had a chance to get together. (picture: AJ's 18th with izza, james, aibee, mary and maki)



11. Haggard and Stress!

Although these words run through my veins, its normal for me to experience these, but heck! they're getting worse. Way back in highschool, they have been calling me "HAGGARD BOY!" (miss that name), but its i guess twice as haggard as before. haha. I thought i can somehow relax in college but damn, its worse! haha.

Its unusual for a year for me not to experience this one. haha.



10. Architecture and CFAD

Yeah! My frustrations.. damn, they're far from reach. This year we (with Sitty and Kyo) went to CFAD to ask about stuffs about advertising. haha! We were then called by my council mates as the CFAD TRIO haha. amf.

Well there are still 3 months to think about stuffs. haha. So sad we couldn't take our dream Photog Course and AdPrac - Advertising Practice (sounds like Advac - Advanced Accounting) haha. Well heck, come what may, we can do something about this stuff, somehow.





9. MMAP (Mr. and Ms. Accountancy Personalities 2008)

Its a project that lasted for almost a semester, starting from its pre-pageant last July up to the main pageant night last November during the college week. Aside from being just a council activity, it is where I managed to almost be flexible, from conceptualizing the design, up to printing, pictorial, distribution of invitations (hirap nito ah), bonding with the candidates, making of the avps, presented an award, being the Technical Director of the whole production.

Its a project which honed my flexibility, thus considering that its my 2nd time to work with MMAP, but the intensity of work is higher this year. Thus, its a project that I will be proud of. Thanks to our Project Head, kuya Eman, directors kuya Earvin and Robin, Asst. director Jay, Stage Directors Krisha and Jetan and to the whole MMAP08 Team. I even had the chance to be bonded with the candidates, and thanks to you peeps. To Justin and Zarah, Goodluck to you both, kevin, alex, joseph, john, abrahm.. aral mabuti! :P, ambassadors of goodwill kyo and ana... ate bernice and ate jen! haha. ^_^ haha. Also to my recruits for the working team, rejean, chummy, sitty, iris and joc during the pre-pageant and pageant night. haha!




8. Contests and Finky! (Flicker, Float, Dulaang Rizal and my pink camera)

Its an achievement siguro na I managed to top 2 university-wide competitions, di ko akalain. . pero its all because of the efforts and support of my ASC family. my UBE-kada named my camera "FINKY" dahil sa pink color. haha.

Thanks to UST Central Student Council's Flicker Digital Art Contest this December and Student Organizations' Coordinating Council's (SOCC) Float and Body Painting Design Challenge last September. Pero hindi matatapos yung float without the help of the AMVCoA Board of Organization Activities and ASC.

Pero not all times ay nanalo ako or kami, our whole class, 2A8, gave good fight in the UST Department of Languages' Inter-Collegiate Dulaang Rizal. Wherein we managed to be the representative of the AMV College of Accountancy, among the rest of the 17 sections of the batch yeah!

1st Place, UST CSC Flicker Stories of Christmas - Digital Art Competition
1st Place, SOCC Float and Body Painting Design Contest (AMVCoA Team Captain)
AMVCoA Official Entry, UST Department of Languages' Dulaang Rizal Competition

7. 3A10 (1st Semester 2008-2009)

Although we only spent about a semester, and messed up in the Medicine Auditorium during the JPIA's General Assembly, in spite of these, I consider this section as part of making my whole year. Its nice to see that during the later part of the semester, we are hangin' out to bond the section and its nice. We had our ups and downs which somehow made our section bonded.

Sayang hindi natuloy yung house party natin with sir B haha..




6. LakasDiwa (Lakas ng Diwang Tomasino)

I consider LD as one of the main points of the year, working and dealing with great people of this party. It is where politics is redefined in a greater manner for tons of reasons, and I am happy and honored that I am part of this family.




5. 2A8 (2007-2008)

Sigh. I started in UST in this section as an irregular student taking up only 4 subjects in the first semester. Well, i had the chance to know almost all of them before the school year ended.

Our class also had a presentation entitled "Pag-aalaala at pagsasabuhay" for our Rizal Course which was also been the AMVCoA's official entry to the Dulaang Rizal last February. the whole 2A8 gave support to this considering the overnights, budget and a bunch of stuffs which we all really gave effort. This presentation even bonded the section more, though it had affected our academic performance (daw?).


I had fun with this section. At first I thought i wouldn't be part of the section, but later on, i had the chance to get along and get closer with the class. Thanks peeps! We also have our advisers Sir Pierre and Ma'am Ailil ^_^




4. Multimedia Arts (Photography, Graphics - Photoshop, AVPs, etc)

ITS MY LIFE. haha. Sir Pierre once joked about my job preference in the council and my partner is our computer.. yeah right. haha.

I didn't even consider that it would be my passport in tons of stuffs in college. From the simple softwares i use wayback in highschool, i am adjusting and currently studying complex applications. (instead of studying accounting! yeah!) lol. I am having fun while thinking of concepts, making AVPs, doing posters... others think of it as waste of time or very hard to do, well yes, but if you put your heart to it, you can. Instead in accounting again, haha.

I am very thankful to those who supported my ideas, concepts and projects. Thus, to those who gave criticsms and suggestions. I also had the chance to work for SOCC, thanks to ate telay, as their AVP Editor for Cheermania 2008.




(for 1-3 in no Particular Order --- peace ^_^)



UBE: Ultimate Bonding Experience

UBE: Ultimate Bonding Experience started if off from a term coined by our granmaster jane a year ago. We started to have our get-together stuffs during long breaks and holidays.

Last December 23, we had our anniversary get together, and it was really nice, we never had this bond way back during high school, and its nice to see us all back every UBE time. We are somehow getting closer every 'session' haha., just hope that we would still have time for each other for the next months and years to come.

I am very much close to Drei than the others before, being one of my best buds way back first year high school, known my secrets and stuffs, having same experiences in CAT and now in school politics. haha. Jane is one of my greatest advisers of every problem, my colleague from the debate team, our salutatorian, and our editor-in-chief., DK, Maki and Khen are my Group 3 buddies, inuman sessions, tambay and sorts way back HS. Izza, our valedictorian, my seatmate and colleague from the debate and editorial staff. Thanks to Jane, Drei, Maki, DK, Khen and Izza. :D




Accountancy Student Council

the ASC made my whole year remarkable and stressful. haha! No kidding, but this stress is what i can say harsh yet meaningful, heck! it is what it is all about. It redefined my meaning of Student Leadership, working with bunch of great people whom i then treated outside the bounds of just normal colleagues. we also have to put in mind that, Student Leaders are students first, and thats a fact.


I am having fun while working with them, though there would always be that problem in every situation or sorts. Like Kiel said its really "having fun while working". In terms of personal problem, we also tend to comfort each other and try to solve it, help another when one is about to fall into a problem, in terms of academics or other problems. Though i already told them about my case, but what the heck, its all over now..

I am thankful to know these persons, they really made my whole year complete. To our EBs: dennis, kuya eman, ate diane, karen, patrick, jokie, ate lei, kuya johnny... To the TEAM EC! krisha, camille, stepdad randy, mommy krissy, ivan, mikko, janine, princess, anj, jetan, macky, jay, hansel, kyle, pao, akina, kiel... sana wala akong nakalimutan. lol. jowks. Nice working with you peeps! :D

Thanks to karen and kuya emman for really guiding me from then, mommy krissy and stepdad randy for listening and taking care of me like your son haha, ate diane for being my inspiration.. naks!, dennis for being our brother inside the council, krisha and camille for being my "uwian" buddies and keeping my secrets. anj, princess and akina for listening to some of my problems and sharing stuffs ^_^


The student council is not just about the executive board and coordinators, i also met our staffers and those who help the council. Special mention to my twin brother Arch. haha. The active staffers (kilala niyo na kung sino kayo)... the whole Creative Media Team. I also had the chance to somehow get along with the Board of Organization Activities, to JPIA and Comach.

Integrity, Solidarity and Service. The theme of the ASC this year, hoping that somehow we can attain and uplift the true meaning of the three virtues of the theme. There are only 3 months left and lets make the most out of it.

Graphic Artist / Creative Team Captain, Accountancy Student Council 2008-2009
Webteam Committee Staffer, Accountancy Student Council 2007-2008

A8kada

Friendship formed from a section, bounded by distance. Okay, so they started of having already each other during the first year, until some of us (including me) came in during the second year, and now having troubles because of distance. It is one of my closest peers, and to think, in one year, its like many years of friendship, having experienced problems and situations.

In AMVCoA, it is said that only 1 out of 2 or 3 can end up in graduation, and sigh, that is what happened to us. Thinking from 23 of us, we are currently trimmed to 12 and by next year, i think it would just be 8? or so. Despite this downfall to our friendship, we tend to somehow revive that certain bond we had. During the earlier part of the year, our momentum, wherein we had our overnight moments, hangin' out with "Tonight" by FM Static as our theme.

But, this distance is what i can think can control and make us mature. Hopefully, we can withstand these challenges and continue what we have. We already faced tons of problems, and we are about to face more. sigh. Special thanks to hearty for merely being my "so-called bestfriend" sharing the same passion and helping me til the end of the battle (alam mo na naman lahat to eh), jazna for listening to my probs and for my dream shirt.. Partner Charm, for helping me think and decide, Claire for cheering me up, Tin who always comforts me when i'm down, Chummy, Chang and Aira for guiding me during the times i am not attending classes (lol), Joc and Julian, my summer classmates (lol), kat for sharing stuffs and to Rakel, Jake, Trek, Hai, Bon, Vince, Peter, Mel, Paul, Charms and Kel.






Well thats it! Thanks for reading this 3-day blog. haha. Happy New Year Peeps and wish you all the best for the coming year. :D

Every Year consists of 31,556,926 Seconds. Each second may represent something bad or something good, nevertheless, all of these fragments consists something greater to remember. Year 2008 is not complete without completing its 31+ Million seconds.

Achievements are the cherry and the cream on top.
Friends, Family and New Companions are the base and foundation.
Problems and Triumphs signifies the bittersweet ingredients.
Memories and Photographs are the spices that sparks up the flavor.

These are all part of our delightful intakes we are having for the rest of our lives.

been too passive...

"letting go of my dreams and to live according to others"

for the past merely 2 months, i've been hearing words and stuffs, asking about my decision and plans, well isn't weird that others have been too concerned with me and i am not even bothering to ask myself with such questions. It's my future darn.

yesterday night, we celebrated paskuhan, oh yeah... after which the pageant peeps asked me to go with them, and so i did. hangin' out @ moa. kuya emman asked me about my plans, yet i don't have any, what strucked me is that he said that "buhay mo yan..."

oh yeah, its my damn life, yet i don't have the means to control my own, living in the expectations and wants of my parents, and setting aside my own freedom and decisions. I know for a fact that they have a point for being such, but i can't be the one who they want me to be. Shit, I wasted 3 years of my life thanks to them.

If you would ask others who know me way back in highschool, I am not acting myself right now. I am a person who will do everything for the sake of being one of the top, but now that I am facing one of the recessions in my life, the deepest i guess, I am not doing anything. Too relaxed and contented.

"Wake Up!" if only i could tell it to myself.. but sigh, its as if i am too afraid not to make another mistake again. its my life i am wasting for cryin' out loud..

I can no longer aim for my dreams. My parents decided back to continue the punishment they are trying to give me for years... with this, am i making another mistake of my life? why can't i focus myself to be the one they want me to be, i can and i sort of want to be an accountant but the means of being one is out of my reach.

I've been too passive about a life-changing problem... T_T

detached to a wasted reality

"its like killing my own self every second... watching my own blood.. and standing still as if I am not wounded."


If there would be a part of my life wherein I need someone to hold on to, to be courageous enough to stand still, and to adjust my whole life... that would be now. I am not a perfect person who can live up to my own will, and sad to say, this is not one of my plans, i have no "Plan B" for such.

Expecting help from those who expected my help is not possible, in fact there are those who even took for granted the situation I am on, playing jokes on me, but silly me, I even laugh at my own mistakes.

Every factors why I strive to live seemed to turn back against me. Got detached with my bestfriend though temporarily, a big family gap is currently arising, She almost left me alone without notice... Its like living in a sea of the unknown.

I am an extrovert person, still imature and independent to others around me. Now, when I needed all of them, it seems that its really a Solitary Battlefield. I needed to back my own self up to survive, to bring back those whom I needed to be with.

My parents did set me free and there would be a time that I will be free with no strings attached from my parents. With what happened to me recently, there's a big gap that weakens me, also with the fact that I am sort of detached with my closest friends for some time now due to some factors.

I am currently in an ocean of the unknown, floating in the skies of uncertainty, living my life as if I am in a wasted reality.


I have to go on, find a way to succeed.. there's only a few steps remaining in this chapter.. hang on to the right path. (sigh)




(continued 11.25.08)

I am really bothered, that instead of going to class, i rather think alone and have a plan, or if I'm in class, i'll still be thinking of the same thing... I may never reach my dreams as I expected to happen. my parents are still pushing me for the same thing, the same reason of my defeat. I keep on telling them that i'll be the wasted person I am today if they'll be the same wasted parents I have, for they are the one who guides me. (shocks)

Everyone expects me to have a plan by this time, but luckily, i don't have any. I am still floating... So if one asks me about my plans, shit, I am having a hard time reasoning and explaining why I am in such situation. I thought I can be this, I thought I can do this, but in the end, I can't do what I want to do.

I wanted to pursue what I want, but I would always end up following others, and end up a loser, defeated against the world, and defeated against my own self.

Pressure vs Frustration = Foul Play!

will i ever regret if someone took this calculator and lead me to beato angelico?


PRESSURES vs. FRUSTRATION

these two words represent 2 most important thing for me as of the moment... only few knows what happened lately.

pressures lead me to frustration, but as i am closer to my frustrations in life, i can't detach myself from all the pressures i had.

i may have said that i haven't dreamed myself as an accountant, but studying other than accounting? i think i would definitely miss that. i see myself in the field of arts, but studying arts, i don't think so.

i may be the weirdest person in earth to have such problem, but i am.

so here's a scoop of what happened lately, its a first for me to fail a subject. its something i can't control then for pressures are really striking me not to study. Why does I is in FAILURE? got this from kyle, and shit.. I am the reason why i failed that subject, though my parents are pushing that my extra-curriculars are the reason. This is the result of not studying, not having interest to studying, not having hopes in this field i am on.

the fear of higher accounting made me lose everything. frustrations arise and lead to a foul play. i took that subject and just flunked it with no effort and interest.

i've been talking to almost everyone who knows my problem, and they have different opinions and perspectives. Its a sign for me to shift... its a way to wake me to study hard in accounting... and other comments to take note.

if others whom i know flunked higher accounting subjects, and even got debarred, what more can i do by the time i got there? its stupid to think about it and make myself in fear... i played FOUL, to really end up relaxed and let my own grades fall down and i somewhat regret for not fighting fair. this is not me.. not me.

i know that i failed the hopes of my closest friends, their hopes which gave me the strength during my dark days... i failed them as well.



I NEED HELP! to be able to decide and act quickly for time is really running out... and finally regret that someone took my calculator.


pressure and frustration is how i relate accountancy vs. the field i really wanted to pursue.

18 Pressures

"don't just study to pass, study to learn as well. Don't just aim to get a good grade but aim to simply do your best; remember, YOUR GRADES WON'T DEFINE WHO YOU ARE AND WHAT KIND OF A PERSON YOU ARE.

You are greater than your fears, so stay tough and don't give up yet. Also always bear in mind that there are some things that we don't have to think about, but rather to pray for."

- a text message from Dennis Alfonso :P


well, true enough..

rather than thinking of how to celebrate an occassion, might as well treat it as an ordinary day to learn from tons of my mistakes. A year full of rapid changes, a year of problems and challenges that leads to another chapter that is still uncertain.

i just realized that i've been thinking much about my grades, the grades per se and not how to gain knowledge from what i've been taking up. its like, i've been studying and going to school for the sake of using the tuition fee that i paid to take Accountancy.

though my friends and my extra-curricular stuffs puts meaning to my stay in this college, yet, the real purpose is missing, the real training to be an accountant. having an ARKI lanyard is an excuse, dreaming to be an architect, using my own skills to achieve my dreams.

i never realized myself computing numbers in the first place, i aspired to be someone in front of a drawing table, or flying to other countries, or directing my own movie, or even having my own photo gallery.

ok, i grabbed the fate to be an accountant, but my heart is still adjusting to such, and in UST-AMV, i guess adjusting needs to be very fast-paced, no time must be wasted, but i'm wasting my time still thinking about such, wasting chances to uplift my grades.

i will not deny that i made myself a candidate for debarment, and i don't know what would happen to me if ever. (knocks on wood) i just hope that i could make a way to finish things the way it supposed to be, though delayed.. like justin hebreo said earlier "lahat naman makakagraduate, hindi nga lang sabay-sabay.. sabay ka na sakin" shit. haha!



well, the pressure is in me, to survive in this battlefield and remain standing amidst all challenges and fears...

i have to be strong.. to conquer this battle. for my friends, to the whole a8 kada, my ASC family, my a10 classmates, my highschool friends, and to everybody else who are there and witnessed a part of me.

GAMBATTE!!

in the midst of the cold night

I think you can do much better than me
After all the lies that I made you believe
Guilt kicks in then I start to see
The edge of the bed where your nightgown used to be

I told myself I won't miss you
But I remember
What it feels like beside you

I really miss your hair in my face and the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

While looking through your old box of notes
I found those pictures I took that you were looking for
If there's one memory I don't wanna lose
That time at the mall
You and me in the dressing room

I told myself I won't miss you
But I remember
What it feels like beside you

I really miss your hair in my face and the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me

The bed I'm laying in is getting colder
Wish you never would have said it's over
And I can't pretend I won't think about you when I'm older
'Cause we never really had our closure.
This can't be the end
End

I really miss your hair in my face and the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me


Better than me - Hinder


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I don't know what happened then, the blame is probably is on me. Its hard to be in such, had nothing to do and don't know how to get back.

The night is getting colder, and the problems even gets things worse. No closure perhaps, I'm still hoping and she's always been there. No problem as it seems, but there would always be that barrier.

I know I haven't done anything right... Just popped out of my mind in the midst of a long cold night.

coping with uncertainties

Life, as it goes on, gives answers to my problems... happy? not much, for it still leaves some unanswered and even more complicated.

How can I ever fight the someone if destiny won't allow me to. Its a matter of right choice - sir rey barrera (organizational behavior), every decision counts and it is up to me to decide and to make a plan.

Giving up is the worst thing that could happen to me, I am already here in this place wherein I can experience the scene that I just dream of months ago, yet my mind says not to. Even other friends said to stop this stuff. Maybe you, readers, are confused with what I'm talking about..

She's too uncertain.. its like catching up to the star that is impossible to hold, I can see and be with her but I could never have that unique tie with her. I guess there would come the time that I'd forget what I am fighting for. I just hope that I could change and act quickly.

Its my fault, yes. My priorities are divided. I hope that my friends understand what I am into. Being in separate universities and irregular sessions in AMVCoA, plus responsibilities and duties makes it hard for me to adjust.

Earlier, I felt floating. (hearty rejean and step-dad andie saw me unwell) I don't know, maybe the sense of belongingness is still missing. Yet I already found it in my friends in the previous 2A8 and in the Council. Maybe I just miss them, used to being with them given that we bonded merely a year.

The Council helps me to be responsible and encourages me to study, having friends and new colleagues plus the passion in the arts, fun experiences and the duty to serve makes me whole, Thanks to them. I just hope that everything would be ok and great.

I just hope that I can forget about these uncertainties and issues and start working to build the path for my future. The doubt regarding Accountancy strikes back. Waah!!

Integrity, Solidarity and Service

its the theme of the SULO Accountancy Leadership and Teambuilding Seminar.. it doesn't just end with that.

I have just experienced the mere feeling of incorporating those three in my 'ol dull life. (don't worry this isn't a reaction paper) I just can't get over what i have experienced.

The first day was a very inspiring, hearing the talk of the former CSC President Reyner Villaseñor.. "when you choose to be neutral in times of injustice, you chose the side of the oppressor." when an elephant is stepping on the mouse's tail and you choose not to do anything about it, the mouse will not appreciate it." (ate anj's version) Being neutral, which i sometimes opt to be, is not a resort to be safe, rather its taking side with the oppressor..


Leading is different from Serving...

most often we prefer being the leader, but sometimes we forget the part of service in leadership.

The second day is a blast!. It was really tiring being the facilitator for the Amazing Race, (jealous that i wasn't able to play) it was fun to see them all run around the fields of Caliraya. The Team EC really did great, if not for everyone that wouldn't be that successful (in spite of some issues) anyways.. haha!

During the last day, Ma'am Beth imparted tons of life's lessons that we have to live with.. after which, a shocking announcement was made, and i myself had been hearing these stuffs since then, i've been hoping that it wouldn't come this far. Although i am prepared to fight for Ate Diane Querrer, but she chose to accept her consequences.. The true spirit of Service over Leading, the true integrity that she manifested that day. I am very proud of you!

I have found new friends in just a few weeks, my friends and colleagues.. with the same passion, interests and wavelengths. haha! I am really proud of you guys! I am really grateful to be part of the Executive Coordinators with our Exec. Board as our guide.. I hope that we would enjoy the coming year and know each other more. ^_^





Give me an "E"!.. Give me a "C"!.. What do we get? "EC"!
GO TEAM EC!

when everything around you seems to fall...

i couldn't make myself that happy if someone around me is about fall..

what would i do to comfort their hopeless hearts? their dreams are shattered with just a blink.. a swift event that changed our lives a lot.

after what happened months ago, i thought that there is always been another way.. but what if that sudden light closed its ways? its my fault to give false hopes then. i tried to help.. i didn't expect a change in policies that stopped their way to another dream.

now? dreams are shattered because of one's malpractice and injustice (damn you, amf!), i often push myself to help, knowing that they are in need of a friend to comfort them.. a problem that i somewhat can relate to..

i need to be courageous enough to be with them.. to overcome my own trials that can never be at par with what they have now.

i have to accept the fact that we wouldn't be the same as before.. others would be going and we would be often complete.. i just wish that we can preserve what we have.



how can i keep standing if everyone around me is falling?? T_T
can i still give a hand even if i know that even my own is not that well??
how?..

Arky! look ahead...

"take a chance because you never know how absolutely perfect something could turn out to be..yeah! one goal: to become a CPA =b so, don't ever think of giving up.." - chummy

i remember the time when hearty (Rejean) and i were talking on the phone about our plans for the coming semester, she suddenly said "teka.. seryoso ka na ba?".. Rejean have been calling me "ARKY", guess why? i've been having doubts and having thoughts to transfer to the College of Architecture.

i replied, "nandito na ako! ano pa magagawa ko?! eh di subukan malay mo di ba?"

having escaped the threat of being debarred (kicked out of the college), i managed to grab another chance to spend a year in the college of accountancy.. a chance that others failed to have. I thought that others deserve to be in my place, they really wanted to be a CPA even if it takes them to study very harsh.. while being in a safe position, i managed to be safe even in putting just merely enough effort.

Am i just lucky enough to survive? is it a sign that i must might as well continue what i have started? well, AMV-CoA gave me a chance.. an opportunity to take things seriously.

in the coming semester, i'll be expected to work again with the Accountancy Student Council.. and i couldn't let them down by transferring to another college. i am looking forward also with working with them.. being in the ASC webteam is a resort of being desperate to express my passion for arts, but it resulted in having good companions, opportunities and experiences..

as i face another semester.. i'll finish what i have started. to conquer the halls of the AMV-CoA, and in the mere future.. conquer the CPA Licensure Exams..

i need perseverance and determination..

Tonight

i remember what kel told once, someting like.. "pagtanda natin.. maalala natin ang kantang lagi nating kinakanta noon. (tonight)"

it also reminds us of the SOUP+RICE! (surprise) of the girls to us, boys.. for a period of two hours listening to their presentation and eating together in a symbolic memorable lunch, all we have to listen is the song "tonight".. waw!

i even remember the times that we are singing together while walking or hanging out.. we even played the song at Rommel's and Trek's Place, at the Underground (DOTA place), in the classroom and in the hallway..

being with them eases all my problems, we even maximized our time to be with each other.. going home late and arriving at school very early (though late ako minsan).. Just for a year, we had memorable experiences and ultimate friendship... thanks for that!

The meaning of the song is meant for us, now that some of us are about to part ways and we are facing a big challenge of the group.. we just hope that everyone would be fine amidst the different challenges that we all face. may the friendship withstand the test of time..

as the girl-kada says "Friendship lasts a lifetime!"

-- to the whole group!
The girlkada and the spartan boys / emokingdom (daw?)

(Kat, Kel, Rejean, Paul, Tin, Jaz, Peter, Iris, Julian, Boni, Charm, Rommel,
Vince, Joc, Chummy, Claire, Jake, Aira, Trek, Hai, Rakel, Charms)
and to those who joined us even for a while (Karen & Mavic) and guided us (Ma'am Ailil, Sir Pierre, Ma'am Ness)

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Tonight (by FM Static)

I remember the times we spent together
All those drives, we had a million questions
All about our lives and when we got to New York everything felt right
I wish you were here with me, Tonight

I remember the days we spent together,
were not enough, it used to feel like dreaming
Except we always woke up,
Never thought not having you here now would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you, I can just look up
And know the stars are Holding you, holding you, holding you Tonight

I remember the time you told me, about when you were eight
And all those things you said that night that just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in and the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees and stayed out way too late

I remember the time you sat and told me
About your Jesus, and how not to look back
Even if no one believes us when it hurts so bad, sometimes not having you here

I sing, "Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you I can just look up
And know the stars are Holding you, holding you, holding you Tonight"