18 Pressures

"don't just study to pass, study to learn as well. Don't just aim to get a good grade but aim to simply do your best; remember, YOUR GRADES WON'T DEFINE WHO YOU ARE AND WHAT KIND OF A PERSON YOU ARE.

You are greater than your fears, so stay tough and don't give up yet. Also always bear in mind that there are some things that we don't have to think about, but rather to pray for."

- a text message from Dennis Alfonso :P


well, true enough..

rather than thinking of how to celebrate an occassion, might as well treat it as an ordinary day to learn from tons of my mistakes. A year full of rapid changes, a year of problems and challenges that leads to another chapter that is still uncertain.

i just realized that i've been thinking much about my grades, the grades per se and not how to gain knowledge from what i've been taking up. its like, i've been studying and going to school for the sake of using the tuition fee that i paid to take Accountancy.

though my friends and my extra-curricular stuffs puts meaning to my stay in this college, yet, the real purpose is missing, the real training to be an accountant. having an ARKI lanyard is an excuse, dreaming to be an architect, using my own skills to achieve my dreams.

i never realized myself computing numbers in the first place, i aspired to be someone in front of a drawing table, or flying to other countries, or directing my own movie, or even having my own photo gallery.

ok, i grabbed the fate to be an accountant, but my heart is still adjusting to such, and in UST-AMV, i guess adjusting needs to be very fast-paced, no time must be wasted, but i'm wasting my time still thinking about such, wasting chances to uplift my grades.

i will not deny that i made myself a candidate for debarment, and i don't know what would happen to me if ever. (knocks on wood) i just hope that i could make a way to finish things the way it supposed to be, though delayed.. like justin hebreo said earlier "lahat naman makakagraduate, hindi nga lang sabay-sabay.. sabay ka na sakin" shit. haha!



well, the pressure is in me, to survive in this battlefield and remain standing amidst all challenges and fears...

i have to be strong.. to conquer this battle. for my friends, to the whole a8 kada, my ASC family, my a10 classmates, my highschool friends, and to everybody else who are there and witnessed a part of me.

GAMBATTE!!