Pressure vs Frustration = Foul Play!

will i ever regret if someone took this calculator and lead me to beato angelico?


PRESSURES vs. FRUSTRATION

these two words represent 2 most important thing for me as of the moment... only few knows what happened lately.

pressures lead me to frustration, but as i am closer to my frustrations in life, i can't detach myself from all the pressures i had.

i may have said that i haven't dreamed myself as an accountant, but studying other than accounting? i think i would definitely miss that. i see myself in the field of arts, but studying arts, i don't think so.

i may be the weirdest person in earth to have such problem, but i am.

so here's a scoop of what happened lately, its a first for me to fail a subject. its something i can't control then for pressures are really striking me not to study. Why does I is in FAILURE? got this from kyle, and shit.. I am the reason why i failed that subject, though my parents are pushing that my extra-curriculars are the reason. This is the result of not studying, not having interest to studying, not having hopes in this field i am on.

the fear of higher accounting made me lose everything. frustrations arise and lead to a foul play. i took that subject and just flunked it with no effort and interest.

i've been talking to almost everyone who knows my problem, and they have different opinions and perspectives. Its a sign for me to shift... its a way to wake me to study hard in accounting... and other comments to take note.

if others whom i know flunked higher accounting subjects, and even got debarred, what more can i do by the time i got there? its stupid to think about it and make myself in fear... i played FOUL, to really end up relaxed and let my own grades fall down and i somewhat regret for not fighting fair. this is not me.. not me.

i know that i failed the hopes of my closest friends, their hopes which gave me the strength during my dark days... i failed them as well.



I NEED HELP! to be able to decide and act quickly for time is really running out... and finally regret that someone took my calculator.


pressure and frustration is how i relate accountancy vs. the field i really wanted to pursue.