its the 2nd month of the challenge and i haven't posted for a quite a while now, for the problem keeps on getting worse.
CRISIS REPORT OVERVIEW:
I haven't got anything good to say yet. i tried everything, as in everything possible to make things right, but as long as that old lady is sitting there in that office, things will always be this way. Got to find another plan, and do it quickly. (Read: She sucks bigtime)
There are 5 major issues to consider as of date:
Family
I've been hiding everything to them, they don't know the trials i am currently undertaking, except for my mom, she knows almost everything but not all. Earlier, we had a dinner at my aunt's house. its me, mom, dad, my cousin and my aunt and uncle - a talk over red wine. I almost spill everything up, and i don't know what to say, but thank God my dad wasn't able to guess things about me.
Responsibilities
i guess i really have to pause everything up after this coming project, just for now since i already have started it. I don't want to hang everything just because of my situation, i don't want to get their concern but at times i wonder if they can help me in my problem. i guess only moral support is what they can offer. i am just hanging on because of persons whom i have trusted and who needs me. I know they already have observed that i'm starting to detach from the group, but i am not going to totally get out as long as i am still finding a solution to this problem.
Commitment and Friends
There would be no commitment for us, but we will be hanging on with each other, thank you for being there for me. :)
I miss my friends. I wasn't able to show up and got to hand with them for some reasons that i can't explain to them. If it wasn't for this stupid problem, i'll be glad to show up and hang out again.
Persons who depended on me, and those whom I expected
I always thought that they all would help me in this problem but as times pass by, only few submerged to be true to their words. I thought that the powerful generals on the field would help me, but i guess they would always be worthless signatures. She should've kept her word when she said that she'll really help me, coming from a respected officer.
What happened to those whom i expected to help and guide me and who will help back? they already forgot that i'm still stuck here.
Unfair Bureaucracy
Yes, its unfair. Others will think why am i saying this one. I know that everyone seemed to have been benefited with such, but what sucks is that others don't deserve to be helped. I played with the system - true, but i know that i worked hard for it, i deserved to be treated with such.
I've been humiliated quite a few times now in front of those bloated second-class bureaucrats. They say things to me as if i'm just a puny little stupid person, but hey, I don't need to cry and kneel to them, heck, they don't deserve me. I was just forced to be nice to them, but what happened the other day will be the last.
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Only few days remaining, and a few more problems can kill me.
CRISIS REPORT OVERVIEW:
I haven't got anything good to say yet. i tried everything, as in everything possible to make things right, but as long as that old lady is sitting there in that office, things will always be this way. Got to find another plan, and do it quickly. (Read: She sucks bigtime)
There are 5 major issues to consider as of date:
Family
I've been hiding everything to them, they don't know the trials i am currently undertaking, except for my mom, she knows almost everything but not all. Earlier, we had a dinner at my aunt's house. its me, mom, dad, my cousin and my aunt and uncle - a talk over red wine. I almost spill everything up, and i don't know what to say, but thank God my dad wasn't able to guess things about me.
Responsibilities
i guess i really have to pause everything up after this coming project, just for now since i already have started it. I don't want to hang everything just because of my situation, i don't want to get their concern but at times i wonder if they can help me in my problem. i guess only moral support is what they can offer. i am just hanging on because of persons whom i have trusted and who needs me. I know they already have observed that i'm starting to detach from the group, but i am not going to totally get out as long as i am still finding a solution to this problem.
Commitment and Friends
There would be no commitment for us, but we will be hanging on with each other, thank you for being there for me. :)
I miss my friends. I wasn't able to show up and got to hand with them for some reasons that i can't explain to them. If it wasn't for this stupid problem, i'll be glad to show up and hang out again.
Persons who depended on me, and those whom I expected
I always thought that they all would help me in this problem but as times pass by, only few submerged to be true to their words. I thought that the powerful generals on the field would help me, but i guess they would always be worthless signatures. She should've kept her word when she said that she'll really help me, coming from a respected officer.
What happened to those whom i expected to help and guide me and who will help back? they already forgot that i'm still stuck here.
Unfair Bureaucracy
Yes, its unfair. Others will think why am i saying this one. I know that everyone seemed to have been benefited with such, but what sucks is that others don't deserve to be helped. I played with the system - true, but i know that i worked hard for it, i deserved to be treated with such.
I've been humiliated quite a few times now in front of those bloated second-class bureaucrats. They say things to me as if i'm just a puny little stupid person, but hey, I don't need to cry and kneel to them, heck, they don't deserve me. I was just forced to be nice to them, but what happened the other day will be the last.
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Only few days remaining, and a few more problems can kill me.
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