Wasted Ticket

June 23, 2009: a perfect day to relax and have fun due to suspension of classes, but heck, i find it not a good day.

I was supposed to watch a movie with my ASC friends, but i had slept and got there too late for the movies. All my fault. waited for merely more than 1 hr and 30mins for the movie to end and see my friends. sigh.

Don't worry, i'll be watching this movie by the weekend and hopefully its free :)




"It seems that no one in this world haven't got a wasted opportunity in life, and every opportunities wasted doesn't mean one cannot catch up. in my case, i just got a wasted transformers ticket. but hey, there would always be a DVD somewhere? lol."

- mikagiyasuo02
(nag-emo dahil sa movie? amf)

The Observer

a week has already passed. and it's not good.

i've been thinking about stuffs lately, and i wondered why it took me this late to notice things and to get to know myself more, i guess because of the current situation i am in, a situation i can consider as the hardest challenge i ever encountered as of date.

at this rate wherein everyone seems to notice my difference amidst all, I HAVE TO ADAPT, TO ACT and TO BE MATURE.

over the past week, i've been sending "emo" quote messages just to get over what i feel, to stop thinking and move on. I even get exhausted and got so emotional. thanks to joko, charm, hearty, kevin, robin, kuya eman, ate jeanne, camille, kuya randolph, kuya vince, tatie, marge, dennis, akina, carlsberg, arch, tope, yziel, karen p., ivan, kiel, bel, madz, guggles, nikko, kuya stu, claire, iris, chum, mam ailil, mam dawn, and karen-kun for cheering me up and witnessing my fight.

i can't get over as i walk along the hallways, seeing people having their life. i wasn't able to go back and see the home I was in for about 2 years, miss my friends, miss the world i was in before. I MISS MY LIFE. Kuya eman said that in what happened to me, i should've realized the value of things. and heck, i really knew how to value things and time then.

in spite of everything, as i may quote what ma'am ailil said, "buti nakakangiti ka na", yes I am able to smile amidst my problems. but before our conversation she's very worried about my situation, she even talked to kuya eman and arch to update what happened to me. i guess, i have to be mature in this situation, to face my problems and not to cry over it.

I have to be fight and be courageous for myself and for everyone around me.


The world will always keep turning.
And so, one must always keep aiming,
not to stop and cry in the shadow
but to adjust and conquer the flow.

This is the life. This is the challenge.
- mikagiyasuo02

Gambatte Ne! (do your best!)

It’s ok to fall down.
Anyway, we can still get up, isn’t that a good thing?
While falling down look up the sky.
The blue sky high up my head, seems so wide and limitless
Can you see it smiling at you?
I am still alive

- Kitou Aya, One Liter of Tears

It takes courage and perseverance to move on, to find your purpose in life and be able to achieve whatever reason why you were born in this world. One can never realize the true value of life unless you are near end, until destiny seems to almost close your path ahead.

Indeed, challenges in life are part of the path that we are all taking, its part of the process where we can realize who we truly are and our reasons in life. Giving us the power to stand again, it depends on the person if he/she would allow others to help him, or he/she would stand up on his own. No one is said to not be able to stand up except those who are disabled. We don't have the right not to stand up.

There would always be the sky above us, giving us the hope to reach and aim higher, and even giving us the dream that we may be able to fly high. As long as there is the sky, I will always look up and aim higher.


I realized then as i watched Kitou Aya's Story:


As long as we are living, we must always do our best.
We all have the power to stand up and face the vast future ahead of us,
thus, we don't have the right not to do so, for we are not disabled.

On another shade, No one in this world is really then disabled,
as long as there is hope, as long as there is courage,
there would always be that single thing that we can do in life.
- mikagiyasuo02

Realizations during the Maturity Date

sure, maturity was then discussed in finance or in the mathematics of investments, but this blog would not tackle such.


there would come a time wherein you would realize that you are acting as if you're not the person you are, probably turned to be a full-grown monster, i mean person. :P you'll then realize that you've been acting, talking and thinking strange, as if you know everything, you own the world and feel the breeze of independence.


I am thankful that my parents allowed me to be like this, to be independent enough to face my everyday problems. Would you believe that my father don't know anything about my everyday problems, my mother know a few but she can't even barely relate to it. Age Gap perhaps is the reason, they're both 40+ years older than me.

In the peak of the most challenging part of my life as of date, i realized that this problem makes me mature enough. As i was talking with my bestfriend, she's asking for an advice about her academic and work life, and i said "Eto advice lang, *blah2* ...ang labo mo kasi eh" and poof, shit did i said that? haha. Its as if i am that expert enough in issues regarding academic problems and all.

And know what? CONGRATULATE ME! I now know what i wanted to be in the mere future, i kind of weighed things off and i already know that i'll be having this and that then. (Only my bestfriend knows it as of this date, probably by my next blog i can already share it to everyone)


This day, i had conversations with my high school classmates, and heck i miss them, they already had known about my situation and i really thanks for their concern. A classmate told me to forget our past problems and look forward to a future wherein we can team up and establish a new friendship. so nice :D


I know I can face this problem. I WILL AND I CAN.