Bring it on!

"Darating talaga sa point na madudurog ka at sa point na durog ka na mararamdaman mo ang renewal, ang point na pinakahihintay ng lahat."

May 19, 2009. Is there anything wrong with this date?


The first news came to me i stepped inside the ASC Office, its the CPA Board Exam Results. I don't want to talk about the exact details but i really feel so sad when i heard the news. I am still hoping that its just a joke, i don't know why even though he tends to be not so serious but i know and i have that confidence in him to pass. So happy for others who made it, but i don't feel i can be glad for there is a person close to me who did not made it.

So I left and headed to the CSC Office, I talked with Kevin, sat on the floor and had a serious talk. We were thinking of plans for the coming days, i shared my stuffs and plans and somehow opened up about my current problems. Marge joined us and shared with us her points and stories. I don't know why she knew that we're talking about our problems.

I remembered what she said that regret is sometimes useful, regret makes us look back on our mistakes and act forward to cope up with life. Everything has its purpose, even if i might have been delayed already, i know i can graduate in God's time, i have faith in Him. We are not in school not to actually learn about the courses, but to mold ourselves and learn life.

Joko later on joined and had a time to somehow lessen the drama and focus on the actions we must take ahead. I am so thankful I have friends, that amidst all this problems i have them with me.

Thank you Marge, Joko and Kevin. :D


It's already May 20, another battlefield to conquer. As what Ma'am Cabral said, BRING IT ON!

What Time is it?

"What day is it, and in what month... this clock never seemed so alive"
- You and Me by Lifehouse


I am a confessed latecomer, yet i know how to value time.

I was writing my composition for Accountancy Journal's Diskwento when i started realizing about this stuff. "Others may say that I have wasted three years of my life, but it was really a fruitful 3 years which helped me to be the better person I am now." Quoted from my composition.

Its a plain blah. i needed to defend myself from that statement, and yes, i am not regretting the 3 years, but i am afraid that others would consider those 3 years a waste, i don't know how to answer questions about that 3 years, how i failed and how i almost drown myself with problems.

In these 3 years, i may not have gained academic knowledge in accounting but i know i've gained wisdom in life and extraordinary friends. My parents wouldn't understand my sentiments but i am happy that i have friends with me who can understand me all along. Sorry for having a different perspective in life.

There are chances wherein i sometimes consider those years a waste, earlier, i imagined myself if i fought for my aspirations and already shifted to Advertising or Architecture, will there be a difference in my life today. I even got irritated when i remember a person merely said that "if you'll be in CFAD or other college, maybe you can graduate or better with a latin honor".

I talked with kuya Mon Yu, and i was surprised with what i heard from him thinking that we just met for about a week, "kahit ganyan nangyari sayo, alam kong intelihente kang tao". I know that i can defend what i've been telling all along that i am a student misplaced in the wrong college and program.

Its already May 2009, only a few weeks left and its another academic year, i really don't know how to build my life once again and be able to stand up proud. If you'll ask me, i am proud of myself, but i am not proud of what situation i am in.

Reminders good for 3 days!

i'll be delaying my other post for today til next week, but i'll be posting some reminders while i am away for 3 days. Hope they would be able to read it :D

(akala mo mawawala ng sobrang tagal) haha!


Dennis: "Yung bilin ko, maraming salamat talaga, don't worry pagbalik ko mag-aaral na talaga ako at aayusin ko lahat ng problema dun, after nitong problem gagawin ko na yung pinapagawa mo :D"

Kuya Eman: "Thanks, alam ko talagang loser yun taong yun. haha! sana talaga, and thanks sa pagguide sakin :D haha! di ako sasablay don't worry, takot ko ba sayo eh. haha! gagawin ko talaga lahat at pagbalik ko papakaseryoso na ako (kahit papaano, sana magimprove) lol. Galingan mo sa IAC."

Robin: "Alam kong babasahin mo rin to, at iwan mo sa SC to ah para mabasa nila, Galingan mo sa Board Exam, naniniwala ako sayo. promise!, wag patalo sa stress at pressure and wag magpapanic. Pakisabi din kay ate albie na wish you both the best! pagdadasal ko kayo para hahanapin niyo nalang pangalan niyo sa Top10 :D, kahit away-awayin mo ako sa CSC tae ka. haha! note ko?!"

Stepdad Randy: "Plurk pa din ah! :D galingan mo itay! daya mo yung lanyard ko, mukhang senyales yun, grabe ka talaga! nararamdaman ko na. amf, pero kaya ko to, di ako magpapatalo sa laban na to! argh!! haha. salamat talaga sa lahat"

Kiel: "Hayaan mo na siya, haha! basta ako malinis ang konsensya ko. :D flat one ah!, sabihin mo sa kanila sa council na may message ako dito. haha!"

Jetan: "Alam kong wala kang multiply, pero makikibasa ka nalang if ever.. galingan mo! :D"

Mommy Krissy: "May kasalanan pa ako sayo, pagnaayos ko na tong mga to, aayusin ko na yun, galingan mo ma ah! sipag mo kanina"

Ivan: "Di ko nasend. haha! bigay ko pagkauwi ko. :D, wag mong kacareerin si ano ah, haha! lol."

Akina, Princess, Mikko, Janine, and the whole ASC peeps: "Yung mga nag-i-IAC, aral kayo mabuti ah, galingan niyo :D, bantayan ni si stepdad randy baka late na naman. haha! goodluck!"


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Hearty Rejean: "oi, sa 24 ah, final na yun, wala ng atrasan :P daya mo, try pa din natin sa 17 kung kaya, kung hindi talaga, sagot mo na yun. sige na. haha!!"

Kat: "Text kita next week ah, hayaan mo yung katulong na yun. haha!"



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"Monday mukhang tuloy tayo, text kita sa sunday, haha! kakahiya wala akong regalo, heck, ingat ka, galingan mo ah! sana ok ka na and ayun, di pa rin tayo nagkikita ever since summer? haha. Gambatte!"

Respect

does anyone here thinks that i can do everything? no i can't...

my friends probably observed that i don't have much time to study, yes and its my fault for i don't want to study in the field of accounting, but now that i am determined to change things, to study and have my own priorities. I need to do things the way i wanted it to be, but still with respect to everyone around me.

i know how to deal with the people around me and up to what extent would i have to tease them or hang out with them, for i am that sensitive in dealing with people around me.

its just that, its pissing me off to think that giving me few days with a harsh deadline thinking that it is so UNFAIR.. what if i would have another priority, i know that it is still a responsibility to consider, but i already had set my own time for it but things went wrong and i don't blame anyone for it.

i am not someone to think big, i may not have the powers to be so, i am just a regular teenager who can do things and is also sensitive and needs to be respected. so what if i'm staying in the middle-level of the heirarchy, still i know i am doing my best, i am respecting my seniors, colleagues and the whole team. I am asking for the same favor in return.

that is what i have learned with my ASC and LD Family, that amidst the stress is the respect and care that they still show. i am an IMPERFECT person, not always able to meet some deadlines (i repeat, not all), i may not have that superb designs and ideas, but I AM DOING MY VERY BEST. If you are not able to see my worth and my effort, and so do I care about you?

I am very thankful to everyone who appreciates and observes my efforts and works, giving me confidence and determination to continue doing the best that i can do. just to plug in, thanks to my CSC Colleagues for helping me out, its a first time that i've been doing just what i have to do and that's it, i learned to ask for help and do the only things i needed to do.

Something New

It's a new season, a new environment and a new chapter. May 2009 is in, the last month of the summer break and my summer classes. Time flies so fast, a cliche yet its true enough.

I've been adjusting for the past few weeks, i can now stand a day not using the ASC Computer, i had just moved out my books and things in the office, i already been using the title "Ex-ASC Graphic Artist" in my notes in the office, i've been trying to get used to be in the CSC and to adjust with my colleagues.

Last day of April, we had our ASC Summer Night Out, - its Camille and Janine's Treat! (thanks!) i don't know why i tended to be slightly sentimental as I bidded farewell to them. Its the first time to say "Mamimiss kita.." to a friend in the council. I don't know why as I am riding the bus then heading home, I had that feeling of solitude, i would really miss everything. My one year in ASC and LD turned out to be a one-of-a-kind experience that I would be carrying my whole life.

I didn't expected that i'll be this attached with them, that in spite of working together, that friendship bloomed amidst every event organized, every problem solved and issues faced together. Its kind of awkward to write for them this way, too cheesy perhaps.

I can't believe that i'll be wearing a new uniform by the coming semester, a new building, new lifestyle.

Probably a different "Me" awaits in the few months.