Twenty Five

The warm and bright lights are just in sight.
My heart sees nothing but mere illusions,
Illusions of what was supposed to be the season of love.

Damn the feeling of this solitary freedom.
How to fly in the vast sky with only a wing to flap?
I don't want to face the world alone with a broken heart.

When will my heart be enlightened?
That I may face the world even in nobody's shadow,
That I may withstand the current of winter against my body.

How could this season remind me of such lonely feeling.
Lies between my fingers is an evidence of loneliness
The space finds its partner to fill in the emptiness.

Until when will I sleep in this indefinite distress
I'll await the spring to come and shift the prevailing wind.
May it replenish the life I once had and rejuvenate my soul.

The city sleeps in bright lights and carols of joy,
Everyone dreams of faith and hope
but my heart just suddenly weeped in thoughts of you.

Oh such bittersweet Christmas.

- mikagiyasuo02

The Frustrated Architect and the CSC Paskuhan Float

After lahat ng hirap, CONGRATS CSC! Sikat ang baby nating lahat - our UST400 Float.


Congrats to Tope and Yziel, as well as to my co-team leaders Anna, Alex, Poli, Justine Boy and all, sa mga nagovernight at nagpahiram ng materials, Ate Jeanne, Joko, Marge, Kuya Cachi, Ate Chesca, Kuya Jarry, Nicole, Kim, Kat, Juancho, Guggles, Roan, PI, Karen, Yzza, Dane, Hannah, Pipoy. Thanks to my Team Xmas Tree: Kirby, CJ, Jeff, Sarah, Fathy, Angiel, Paowee. Astig!

I thought my ideas would flop or so, it's better than what I've imagined before as I am planning and analyzing Cathy's Design (Cathy Mendoza, President of CFADSC). Nagkaroon pa ng times na gusto ko na sumuko for I can't manage things right since isa ako sa naghandle ng operations ng paggawa ng float. Kinabahan din ako for I just used assumptions and mere prediction sa mga gagamiting materials, sizes and quantity.

Thanks Team CSC. :D

Nakakatawa din dahil it is a time to release all my frustrations for Architecture. I even drew sketches and pseudo-blueprints. Ate Chesca (former CSC Secretary) even thought I had a year in Arki being able to draw such, pero sobrang amateur attempt lang talaga yun ginawa ko.

Here's our baby. :D

Paskuhan 2009

"It was really a good night"
There's always something new every Paskuhan.


After lahat ng hirap at pagod, overnight sa Tan Yan Kee, pamimili at lahat, naayos din namin yung Float.

Nakakatuwa din dahil for the past years, pagdating ng 10PM, medyo Nababawasan na yung mga tao, pero this paskuhan, puno pa din ng tao yung field. Sobrang kakaiba yung program, nakakakilabot nung sinisindihan na yung candles during the prayer. Ibang klase nung pinerform na yung Quadricentennial Song then Fireworks. Astig!

Sabi nga nung isang nakausap namin, "Sana every year, ganito ang paskuhan".

What a memorable paskuhan experience. :)

Life is a game.

"Life is full of 'what if's' and these 'what if's' always ends to a discovery - one must have the courage to step out his/her own boundaries that he/she may learn something new about life."

After hearing thoughts and after drinking enough alcohol, gumana bigla ang utak ko para magblog. To Nicole, Alex and Kim, this one's not about you peeps, random thoughts lang since ginising niyo utak ko. haha! :D



I do believe that one must seize every moment while it lasts, although I'm optimistic that I'll live longer, I still wanted to be happy while I am still existing in this world. Life is just too fast to handle, there are things that you'll regret that you haven't done, there are things that you'll long to have, and stuffs. It is full of surprises, one will be discovering and experiencing stuffs from time to time, which started from just a simple thought and idea.

There are people who will end up contented with their life for they have stepped out of their box and had seen life in a bigger picture, while there are some who will be stuck in what they have. Destiny is just a game, play along and defeat every challenges, gain points and experience and after everything, we'll earn the reward that destiny would like us to have. We are still the player of our life, we have the gameplan to conquer and win this game that destiny had set.

As we play along, we will encounter challenges that we must face and we'll eventually win or lose. One must have the courage to break the boundaries and move on with life, the game will not move on for one to win the whole thing, it is the player who must dare to make the move to win.

In order not to regret in the end, one must be courageous enough to make the move to live life in its fullest.

2nd Semester 2009-2010

Ako nagayos ng schedule ko pero ewan ko ba kung bakit parang may ginawa akong pattern. Haha.

HST101: History of Western Civilization - Assoc. Prof. Carlito Dalangin

ECO8: Econometrics - Dr. Alvin Ang

RESM/PW: Research Methods and Proposal Writing - Prof. Narita Ellar

CWG: Contemporary World Geography - Ms. Analiza Yanga

POL221: Dynamics of Philippine Politics - Dr. Lysander Padilla

FIL3: Retorika - Prof. Milagros Aquino

SPN2: Intermediate Spanish - Señorita Vanessa

Sa wakas may 3rd year Major na din ako, though my and my other shifter colleagues were not able to take the pre-requisite (Eco7: Statistics for Economists), still kakayanin namin to, having a background in Basic Statistics.

Its also a first for me to experience the dreaded "3-Hour, once a week" AB Schedule. So we only have 11-13 meetings, and we are given max of 3 absences, otherwise we'll incur a failure due to absence. Unlike our 3times a week schedule, which I find comfortable and flexible.

Wala pa rin naman nagbago with the section choices, ganun pa din. Sabog. I have 7 sections in 5 majors (Economics, Legal Management, Communication Arts, Philosophy, Behavioral Science), Full Irregular student ulit ako. haha!

Goodluck! :D

The White Sheep

Kada isang pamilya ay sinasabing may black sheep, heck in our case, may white sheep.


I'm not bragging for being such, pero its how i feel. its not even the exact opposite, dahil kahit sabihin na hindi ako yung nagiging masama, pero still i'm being punished or being discriminated for being the good guy.

I feel bad, lalo na ngayon na our family is facing a problem, a big problem. My dad is having a serious health problem at the age of 62, sana maging ok na siya. Nagulat lang ako sa sinabi ng tita ko kanina na "alagaan niyo, baka mamaya makita niyo patay na yang daddy niyo", to think na yung tita ko is 80+ na, kaya medyo nakakatakot. bothered pa rin ako.

Kanina ko lang narealize na gusto ko nang gumraduate, that even at least kung sakali mang mawala na ang daddy ko *knocks on wood* eh maabutan man lang niya yung graduation ko, that even one of his sons would allow him to be proud just even for that moment. Alam ko na sobrang taas ng expectations niya sa akin, being the youngest, lahat ng burden ng parents ko sa mga kuya ko ay naipon sa akin, graduation, having a job, and all.

Sobrang deviant ko sa family, thinking na ako ang nagmumukhang white sheep of the black sheeps, i don't blame my brothers for such, pero nagmumukhang ako pa ang mali at sila ang tama, by which kinasasama ng loob ko. Mali ang pagsali ko sa orgs, mali para sa kanila na magpakaactive ako sa school at mag-aral ako ng matino. Masama for them na magstarbucks ako at doon mag-aral at iba pa. Kaya even my parents wouldn't allow me to have stuffs na hinihingi ko sa kanila, lalo na't malaki ang age gap namin ng parents ko. My dad is 62, my mom is 59, and 19 lang ako.

Of all sons, ako yung tinatawagan parati ng parents ko, ako lang ung pag 11PM wala pa sa bahay, tinatawagan na. I mean at my brothers' time, hindi nila to naranasan, sa akin sobra sila, eh ako nga yung tipong hindi maglalasing ng sobra at maglalayas ng ilang araw.

Sila na ang tama. Ako na ang mali. I just needed their support, kaya siguro ako pinanghinaan at nauwi sa ganito ang sitwasyon ko. Hindi naman ako humihiling ng sobrang laking bagay from them, pero hindi pa din nila ako sinusuportahan even in simple things. sigh.


But still I'll do my best, kahit without much of their support and that before things get worse, I'll be able to make them proud. :)

Reunion Thoughts...

SJA IV-Courage Sembreak GetTogether
November 6, 2009 @ our house
[not present in the picture: Lesmer and Renz]

Andami palang nagbago sa amin mula nung HS, andaming bagong pangyayari sa loob ng apat na taon sa aming sari-sariling pakikipagsapalaran sa kanya-kanyang buhay sa iba't-ibang unibersidad. May ilang pumayat, may ilang tumaba, may ilan na nagbago ng itsura at may ilan din naman na ganun pa din ang kinasanayang gawin.

Gaya ko, may iilan din palang nagshift at may iilang maddelay sa graduation. At yung mga hindi ineexpect na maddelay nung HS yun pa ang mga maddelay. Siguro dahil hindi rin naman namin inexpect na magiging mahirap din ang papasukan naming mga unibersidad.

Hindi ko alam pero sa tuwing napapagusapan ang Graduation, para bang handa na akong depensahan ang sarili ko at maging confident pa na isagaw na "oo maddelay ako!", napapagisip tuloy ako, pero naisip ko ang lagi kong sinasabi, at least alam ko sa sarili ko na hindi ako nagshortcut sa buhay, mas lamang na ako sa dami ng pinagdaanan ko.

Ginagawa ko nalang siyang biro, pero di ko maiwasang pagisipan na dapat ngayong darating na March, graduate na dapat ako. buti na lang at 2007 ang start ng student ID ko at bata pa ako. Gaya nga ng sabi ng mama ko, "ok lang yan, bata ka pa naman!" kung tutuusin dapat 19years old palang ako graduate na ako. pero sa mangyayari sa akin 21 na ako sa graduation, by which is the normal age. Pero sayang pa din. Sigh.

Nakakatuwa at iba't iba sa amin ay may kanya-kanyang baong kwento, unang naguusap ang mga magkakasama. Pagdating ko nga, kinausap ako agad ni Lesmer at nagusap tungkol sa buhay-buhay sa student leader sa Tan Yan Kee building ng USTe. Hindi ako makapaniwala na maga-apat na taon na pala ang lumipas since makagraduate kami ng HS, at humandang humarap sa panibagong hamon ng kolehiyo.

Sana magkitakita ulit kami bago magGraduation ng iba, mahirap na at baka hindi na kami magkasama-sama ulit.

Nakakatuwa. Nakakamiss. :D